So, one day, I was with my friend, and my
friend told me to date this guy. And I don’t even know him, and I was kind of
desperate for a relationship. I didn’t really think he was cute or anything, but
he thought I was when she asked him, and I was just like, “You know what? Whatever.”
Because I don’t have a boyfriend, I want a boyfriend.
I thought everything was going well. We went to my friend’s house and she was
with her boyfriend and then I was with him. And we were having so much fun. We were watching IT, it was kind of awkward. We were trying to, like, share a blanket.
That didn’t really work out because it was just so awkward and it was our first,
like, time hanging out. Anyways fast forward, we were at a football game. And
we were not really talking at all, we were just, like, staring at each other
most of the time. And it was really awkward. And his friends were, like,
crowding around him, and my friends were crowding around me, like, just talking
about each other. And it was all weird. And we got a time to sit alone. And we
sat up on the ledge and, watching the game, and we were just sitting there and
it was really quiet, nothing was really happening.
And I made the dumbest mistake of my life. I turned to him and I asked him, “Do you
want to kiss?” And I don’t even know why I said that. It was so awkward.
He was, like, sweating and, like, shaking, didn’t know what to say. He was staring
at me and, like, was just speechless. And I was just waiting, “Oh no, oh no no, this
is bad, this is just awful.” Like, that voice in my head was like, “No Laurin, just, just die, just, just leave, and go home and die.” And he opened his mouth and he said, “You know, I don’t really know you that much.” Okay, first of all, then why would you say
yes to my friend who said that we would be great together, hmm, okay? I’m desperate for love right now, the last thing I need is to be embarrassed in front of
everybody. And even though, like, it wasn’t even a serious relationship, I was still
heartbroken because I really wanted my, like, first, real kiss, I guess? So he told
me, like, he didn’t really know me that well, so I left. And his
friends were all being like, “It’s okay, Lauren, like, he just wants to know you well.” And
then he came up to me and told me, “Yeah, I just, like, kind of want to get to know
you better, I don’t want to rush it like my last girlfriend.” And I knew what he
meant, okay? And that’s not even the story. The bad part is I was embarrassed,
okay? I literally asked somebody to kiss me and you don’t ask that stuff. But that
happened and I regret it. A lot. So, yeah. That’s my story. And by the way, we broke
up. Yep. Yeah.